Fear of The Truth

2 weeks ago, I was given a lead to meet up with one of the top management key person in one of the Malaysia important Ministry. I was excited as I had always hope I can do something to fix one of the 'mistake' made by my organization

Little did I know, that meeting could lead to endless complications, obstacle, depression and sadness.

Complications, as it now give me a new look on how words of mouth, without any prove, without any truth, it could caused a huge issue to others that is not involve at all. The words we spread, just to cover up what they had not done to fix the issue, what they had cover up all the issue swept under the carpets

Obstacle, as it now give us challanges to clean up the so call 'mistake' by people who has the post and task before. Mistake that can't be turn or re-written on how the end story will be like. 'Mistake' which is correct legally but had caused lots of anger and hatered, hatered that lead to a broader anger to people who had no reason to be punised at all

Depression, as now it is in my associates and my court to clean up our organization name and reputations. The worst is that, we have no means of direct clean up. It has to be something to be clean, slowly and painfully.

How I wish we can just do a press conference and be done with it!!... Maybe I should create an anonymous blog just on that particular project and let the whole world know the full story that happen from the beginning!!!.. That will definitely involve all the unmention names, the so call 'respectable' mat salleh who cheat from end to end!!..

Sadness, as I am trully sad that people will always point the mistake to others, withput even looking at them, who has the power and authorisation to fix them!!...

Sad to see people who quote the verse of Qur'an, but yet forget to see and evaluate what they themself had and had not done, based on their authority they behold and the option they could take to stop this mistake from being repeated again, and again, and again, and agian......

It's going to be a never ending story now...

Sad when people use Islam as a cover up what they had done before and worst, what they still do now!!....

How I wish I could have the chance to tell what had happen, who had make these happen and why it happen

It also thought me, how easy it is for Malaysian to be fooled by the mat sallehs. Why do we look up to them so much but could not differentiate what they are actually??.. It always wonder me how they can tell a lie without any emotions.

It make me so mad to see the high level management in Malaysia can accept these words without any doubt!!..

I do not accept that Malaysian are not smart people. I believe and still believe we have many and lots of smart people in Malaysia.

With the spirit of "MALAYSIA BOLEH", why can't we tell the truth??..

Why do we have to be polite and smile with all that they did??..

God help me to be strong, God help me to help us, God help me to let the truth be known, God help me to find a way for the truth to be known.....

Can I just wait for time to tell??.. Will it be to late then??.. How many more mistakes can this lead if no one can take actions??..

Who can I trust to make things better??. Who can I see to ensure all this can be fix and mistakes can be stoped forever??..

I do not believe it is difficult, I am just sure that we are just scared and worried of the consequences of our own actions................................................